When my friends left here back in March, as the UK was instructed to 'Stay Home', I couldn't have imagined that I would be here alone for 15 weeks before the restrictions eased and they could return. Yet, that is what's happened.
Here're my reflections on the experience.
1. High Points:
Watching the spring, and then summer, unfold, from bare trees and empty fields to lush green leaves and potato crops flowering, with the magical backdrop of the sounds of birdsong with the total absence of traffic noise
Being a part of The Creatives Workshop throughout this time, and having a consistent focus which connected me to people all over the world.
Spending 3 months with my dog, Murdock, after 18 months away from each other.
2. Low Points:
About 4 weeks feeling overwhelmed that I was alone and had no-one to share tasks and responsibilities with. If I didn't do it, it wouldn't get done.
Somewhere in the middle, having a complete meltdown day of crying, when everything seemed too difficult and I couldn’t do the simplest of things.
The day the AGA went cold. The heart of the home was gone.
3. Key lessons:
Re-discovering how resourceful, resilient and capable I am.
Being alone in itself doesn't make me feel lonely, but seeing other people together, whether in real life, or online can be challenging.
Being creative is essential to my well-being, whether it's cooking, editing, writing or gardening. Vegging out in front of Netflix sometimes has it's place, but create first, then consume.
- I am really grateful to have been trusted to take care of this house and to have had the incredible experience of being in rural Pembrokeshire at this time.
- I really appreciate all the human contact I have had, whether online, in person or on the phone.
- I am grateful to the pair of Gold Finches that nested in the climbing rose over the front door for showing me close up the miracle of nature as they built their nest, raised their brood and encouraged them to fly.
5. Intention Going forward:
- To discover if it is possible to re-integrate into society after such an extended period alone....
- To build on the momentum of the Time and Attention work I have being doing over the past few months and be intentional about letting people know how they can work with me.
- And, most importantly, to take opportunities to connect in person with family and friends when possible.
I've found it really valuable to use these headings to think about my experience as it comes to an end, and I prepare to move on to a new location. My thanks to Kathy Karn for sharing this framework for Honourable Closure. Have you taken time to reflect on how this period has been for you? What might your high points be? And, your lessons learned?